Hi Friends, I am exercising my will and willingness to communicate here with you all. Excited to see what happens as I share my experience in words, now. Today when I was having a deep sharing session with my friend and mentor, I experienced and recognized that in my core I am grounded with an unshakable tap root to the center of Earth, (like the Tree of Life) with an unwavering commitment to be here on this Earth holding the frequency of Light that I Am. I cried because I had not fully recognized, until that moment, how significant this is. I saw that it could not be taken away and it felt eternal in nature or permanent. I saw that just the fact that I exist here in this knowing is what is needed and that what I do with this knowing is not the main dish. It is 'being' this knowing that matters most. I saw that this Self recognition is perhaps like 'calling my soul back'. It filled in a small gap or wound that I had around 'owning my knowing' and gave me confidence in my true Nature. Then we randomly opened my book (titled Walking Into the Sun: Stories my Grandfather Told, collected by Jon Schreiber) and read the following quote in a story about Sheikh Baha: "Unless you're willing to experience your nothingness, you do not experience your beingness. Unless you except to burn like a candle, you do not receive the first ray of light." This quote had a profound impact on my understanding of what it means to be human and eternal. Then, a couple hours later, I had a strange experience with asking a spiritual colleague and instructor that I have a great deal of respect for, in a class setting, a question in regards to deepening my spiritual work. When I received the answer, I felt deeply unseen. In fact, I felt deeply disappointed like I was being seen as someone who is just beginning to do spiritual work (and I've been in this work for 30 years and I do respect beginners mind). But I am grounded in my beingness, mind/body/feeling connectedness, wholeness, true Nature, present moment awareness, and the like quite often. So what is the lesson? Perhaps this is the part where I burn like a candle. And as I burn, I burn away the extra, to become even brighter. I can say for sure, that I feel like I passed my test where I KNOW what I know beyond doubt and no longer need verification from the outside. Today I found that Self validation from the inside is recognition of Love. I see you all burning brightly as we share authentically and be ourselves together.
